Online Quizzes Are All the Rage

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You Are 60% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance. On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others. You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Musical Tastes Match: Weird Al

See his whole playlist here (iTunes required)

What Celebrity Matches Your Taste in Music?

The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick

You do things your own way - and it's made for colorful times. Your life hasn't turned out how anyone expected, thank goodness! Your best movie matches: Clerks, Garden State, Napoleon Dynamite

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting. You focus on living a quality life. You're not easily impressed with novelty. Yet, you easily impress others.

What's Your Pizza Personality?

You Are 20% Evil

You are good. So good, that you make evil people squirm. Just remember, you may need to turn to the dark side to get what you want!

How Evil Are You?

Your IQ Is 80

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional Your Mathematical Intelligence is Below Average Your General Knowledge is Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

You Are Italian Food

Comforting yet overwhelming. People love you, but sometimes you're just too much.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Currently playing : The Sims 2 University Expansion Pack Release date: By 28 February, 2005

The Cheat is Not Dead. Neither is Holly

Wow. I used to have an online diary! Look! Amazing. Okay, look. I'm really sorry, but I've been distracted. Yes, for the past year. I'm sorry I haven't gotten around to writing, but I'm going to make up for it right now... with a survey! ...Of sorts. Okay, who's ready for the popular internet game... Guess the Song Title! You all know the rules! I listen to random songs on my iPod and type some'a the lyrics in here and you all get to waste time guessing which song the lyrics came from! And I'll even throw in a bonus and give you pictures of who the lyrics are by! Huzzah! Heeeeeeeeeeeere we go!

1. I would die for you... I would die for you. I've been dying just to feel you by my side. To know that you're mine. I will cry for you, I will cry for you. I will wash away your pain with all my tears and drown your fear.

2. From the first breath of her life, she flew straight into my arms. I used to catch her from the swings when she was 5. Now she dances on the wind in a world as hard as stone. She's so anxious to begin and read to fly.

3. We were drawn from the wheels. We were brave like soldiers, falling down under the pale moonlight. You were holding me like someone broken and I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now: just let me hold you while you're falling apart.

4. What's the time? Well, it's gotta be close to midnight. My body's talking to me. It says time for danger. It says I wanna commit a crime. Wanna be the cause of a fight. Wanna put on a tight skirt and flirt with a stranger.

5. I can't be losing sleep over this, no I can't. And now I cannot stop pacing. Give me a few hours, I'll have this all sorted out. If my mind would just stop racing... 'Cause I cannot stand still. I can't be there so sturdy. This cannot be happening.

6. It's like you're a drug. It's like you're a demon I can't face down, it's like I'm stuck... It's like I'm running from you all the time. And I know I let you have all the power. It's like the only company I seek is misery all around. It's like you're a leech... sucking the life from me.

7. I worry I weigh 3 times my body. I worry I throw my fear around. But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain. The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain. By the time I recognize this moment, this moment will be gone.

8. Hold me now... stop the morning light from breaking, something's coming over me. I don't know what it is I'm saving. The clock ticks by and it just might change everything. If I don't give you all that's waiting, who knows what tomorrow will bring?

9. Well... the Poopsmith, he could talk. And Mazipan would rock. And the stick would be this big ol' tree who tried to eat everyone except the Cheat and me. And the King of Town would be underground in a box filled up with peas.

10. We went to the coffee/tea shop on our first date... and it started off great. We made with the talkingn and it was just fine but it soon turned into that awkward silence and I didn't know what to do next. So we sat there with all the couple kissing. And soon, things began deteriorating. And you began turning into the human hosepipe.

11. I had it tough when I was just a little kid; it didn't matter what I thought, it didn't matter what I did. I felt the doubt for what I lacked right from the start. It did a number on my head, but it could never touch my heart. 'Cause I had just enough imagination, just enough to keep the faith.

12. I linger in the doorway of alarm clocks screaming, monsters calling my name. Let me stay where the wind will whisper to me. Where the raindrops, as they're falling, tell a story. In my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby, I lie inside myself for hours, then watch my purple sky fly over me.

13. Creeping up on you is the wrong thing to do. I found your address, got you phone number too. Visit all the stores where you buy all your clothes. Been to secret places you think nobody knows. If I have to live without you, nobody could. I need to be around you, watching you.

14. It's so quiet, walking along the edge. It won't be long now till I forget who I am. I am so afraid to move forward. All the mistakes I've made surround me. So I run away. I cannot face what I'm throwing away. It's just as well. You could always tell when I was hollow.

15. They were the sweetest wonds I've ever heard, my heart could barely take it in, like water offered to the lips of a tired and thirsty man. 'Cause it's a tangled web I've woven and I don't know all the reasons, but it amazes me to wake up to your mercy every morning.

16. Oh, I couldn't live a single day without you. Actually, on second though, well, I suppose I could. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, honey, you're the greatest. Well, at any rate, I guess you're pretty good. Now it seems to me, I'm relatively lucky. I know I probably couldn't ask for too much more. I honestly can say you're an above-average lady. You're almost just what I've been looking for.

17. Well, he looks at me with those innocent eyes and says, "It looks like you're wearing some kind of disguise because your hair sticks up, your shoes are untied, and I hope that you got that shirt at half-price." And every word I say falls flat on the floor. I try to tell a joke, he's heard it before.

18. Move your body like a hairy troll learning how to rock and roll. Spin around like a crazy elf dancing by himself. Get down like a unicorn. No stopping till the break of dawn. Put your hands up in the air... like an ogre who just don't care.

19. We like to buy, we like to spend, to keep up with the latest trends, but we don't get no satisfaction living like a slave to fashion. No more thinking for yourself... just get it off a shelf. Oh, why be perfect? No, it's not worth it. Don't be so obsessed. Come on, give it a rest. This is not some contest. Just do your best. 'Cause nobody's perfect.

20. I don't want to stand on a stage with a sword. I went to a pantomime once. I was bored. I'm not a poetical sort of a person like you. When I need a poem, the street and the gutters will do. There's Tommy Flannigan who lights the gas lamps. 190 lamps in Phoenix Pack alone. He's done it drunk for over 57 years... in Dublin.

Here's hoping I'll write a real entry before 2007! Woo!

<3, Holly

You Can Only Talk About Potatoes So Long

Jerry was in a play called A Man of No Importance recently. I'll talk about that next entry. I've actually already written most of that entry. I just don't feel like finishing it right now, and I've got to get to work. Perhaps I'll write about that later, too. But the point I'm trying to make here is, Jerry leant me his Man of No Importance soundtrack, and this chick who plays that girl in the blue coat sings, "You can only talk about potatoes so long." Well, I've got news for her.

Potatoes are delicious. They're full in carbie-goodness. Why, I love potatoes so much, I could eat them every day of the year. If I were a potato farmer, let me tell you, I would be a happy Holly. Just last night, I ate mashed potatoes with a side of fries, which were filled with... YOU GUESSED IT! ...potatoes. Earlier that day, I had some hash browns. I never understood what was up with that punishment where they make people peel potatoes. I mean, dude--you could turn those babies into sweet potato cassarole! Man, my mouth is watering just thinking about potatoes.

Alright, I guess I should get to work now, but you kids remember to eat your frickin' potatoes. They're delectable. Now just sit back and enjoy these lyrics by "Weird Al" Yankovic.



"Addicted to Spuds"

Potato skins, potato cakes

Hash browns and instant flakes

Baked or boiled or French fried

There's no kind you haven't tried

You planned a trip to Idaho

Just to watch potatoes grow

I understand how you must feel

I can't deny they've got a peel



Wo, you like 'em whether they're plain or they're stuffed, oh yeah

Better face the facts, it seems you can't get enough

You know, you're gonna have to face it, you're addicted to spuds



Your greasy hands, your salty lips

Looks like you found the chips

Your belly aches, your teeth grind

Some tater tots would blow your mind

And you don't mind if they're not cooked

You need your fix, I guess you're hooked

And late at night you always dream

Of bacon bits and sour cream



Wo, you like 'em even if they're lumpy or tough, oh yeah

It's pretty obvious to me you can't get enough

You know you're gonna have to face it, you're addicted to spuds



Might as well face it, you're addicted to spuds

Might as well face it, you're addicted to spuds

Might as well face it, you're addicted to spuds

Might as well face it, you're addicted to spuds

Might as well face it, you're addicted to spuds



I'm giving up, it's just no use

Another case of spud abuse

What can I say, what can I do

Potato bug has got me, too



Woah, I used to hate 'em, now they're all that I eat, oh yeah

I've often seen 'em whipped, but they just can't be beat

Now I'm gonna have to face it, I'm addicted to spuds

See, blue-coated girl? Weird Al wrote a whole song about potatoes! I guess I showed that fictional character!

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Holly's Guide to the Movies

Hello, I'm Holly Zintel. You may remember me from such rants as "Love Trent or Get Bent (a Daria/Trent 'Shipper's Thoughts)" and "I Demand Veganaise (A Demand For Veganaise)". I was at Border's the other day to renew my enthusiasm for life (that's where you go to do that... it just is) and I found that I couldn't afford that book I wanted about a hot, British musician boy who's obsessed with this girl who's on drugs (it's called Candy by Kevin Brooks). I was very upset about not being able to afford Candy (don't worry, I have it now), but what could I do? I sat down to drink my mango smoothie with my mum. While I sipped on the delicious nectars of artificial colors and sweeteners that make up the Borders Mango Smoothie, I skimmed through a book called Cinematherapy: The Girl's Guide to Movies For Every Mood by Beverly West and Nancy Peske. I found solace in the book. It told me to rent Edward Scissorhands... and by God, I did. I'd forgotten the movie existed, and had only seen it when I was about 6 years old. When I watched it as a 21-year-old, it seemed even more brilliant. The book also told me to rent Win a Date With Tad Hamilton. The book was right... it was good. But you know what this book made me realize? I could rip off their idea! And now... I will in: Holly's... Guide... to... the... MOVIES!1. Moulin RougePlot: A beautiful hooker named Satine (Nicole Kidman) becomes the object of a really hot writer's (Christian's) affection... also, this hideous, evil rich dude called the Duke likes her. And they're got friends. Lots of them... circus-lookin' folk, even. Christian (Ewan McGregor) writes a musical for Satine and all his friends to be in! But will the evil rich dude ruin the show as well as a beautiful relationship? P.S. Satine's got quite a cough. What's up with that? Holly's Overall Thoughts: This was the best movie of all time. Ewan McGregor, in all his hotness, pulled off the most heart-wrenchingly emotional scene I've ever seen. And oh God, that singing voice! Also, Nicole did very well. And there was glitter and theatre everywhere! Does it get any better than that?! Hot Guy: Ewan McGregor, the epitome of hotness. Great Songs: "Come What May", "Elephant Love Medley", "Your Song", "Roxanne", "The Show Must Go On", etc. Moment You Should Watch For: When Christian goes to Satine to tell her, "I don't want you to sleep with [the duke]." Even though he's proven himself this amazing, talented, romantic hero, he just seems like a lost little boy who doesn't want his mom to leave him at pre-school. She tries to go and he gets all choked up, holding her and crying, "No... no."

2. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban Plot: It's Harry Potter's (Daniel Radcliffe's) third year at Hogwarts, and it's gonna be awesome. Well, you know, except for the guy who betrayed Harry's parents and sent them to their deaths. Yeah, that guy's back in the picture. It'll be fun. Will Harry and Hermione (Emma Watson) hook up in this movie? Probably not, since they didn't in the book, eh? But maybe the next movie! Wait, no... that's based on the book too! But maybe the next... no, wait... Holly's Overall Thoughts: If you don't love this movie, I probably don't love you. It's Harry Potter, for God's sake! And it features Hermione, my favorite character! And Buckbeak is there. Anyway, I think this Harry Potter movie has been the best of the three that have come out so far. It was brilliantly directed, and kept me on the edge of my seat, even though I knew what was coming. Hot Guy: Daniel Radcliffe, A.K.A. Mr. Hot Great Songs: That "Something Wicked This Way Comes" song was pretty catchy. Moment You Should Watch For: Harry holding Hermione in a moment of terror. I know what kind of terror, but I won't tell you, in case you haven't seen the movie yet.

3. Edward ScissorhandsPlot: The friendly neighborhood Avon lady (Diane Wiest) isn't having a lot of luck selling her products this season. But look! In the distance! A creepy castle on a hill, which contains a very hot gothic boy who has scissors for hands (Johnny Depp)! His face is all pale and scarred up from him accidentally scratching his face (it was itchy, dammit), so she can test her products out on him and he can come to live with her and her family! But wait... who's that beautiful girl? Why, the Avon lady's daughter is a lovely teenage girl named Kim (a blonde Winona Rider), with whom Edward falls instantly in love. But Kim is dating a horrible guy named Jim who happens to hate Edward. How will Edward handle this (or anything at all, without scratching it up)? Holly's Overall Thoughts: Ah, my latest obsession. I loved this movie when I was 6, and I love it even more now that I've devloped an unhealthy obsession with Johnny Depp. I love him in this--he's so polite and sweet, and little boyish. What a doll... I want to take him home and put makeup on him. Hot Guy: Johnny Depp--the hottest guy ever to live. Great Songs: The score is by Danny Elfman, the guy who did Spiderman, and the music sounds awesome. Moment You Should Watch For: I'm a sucker for when Kim asks Edward to hold her and he tries really hard before he defeatedly tells her, "I can't."

4. Orange CountyPlot: Shaun Brumder (Colin Hanks) discoveres a book in the sand in his home town of Orange County, CA that makes him want to be a writer--a writer taught by the book's author, Marcus Skinner, at Stanford University. So he applied... and didn't get in. Now he and his drug-addict brother Lance (Jack Black), eternal optimist girlfriend Ashley (Schuyler Fisk) will do anything to get Shaun into Stanford. Holly's Overall Thoughts: Orange County isn't just a place... it's my whole reason for living. Hee. No, I don't love it that much, that was just a line from the movie. A lot of people hate this movie, but I love it, and think it's one of the most hilarious things ever, especially the old chick who says, "Do you like John Grisham? I sure do!" Hot Guy: Colin Hanks and one of Shaun's surfer dude friends... Colin reminds me of his dad Tom, but hotter. Great Songs: "Shadow Stabbing" by Cake and "California" by Phantom Planet Moment You Should Watch For: After Lance burns down the admissions building and is talking to Ben Stiller about it. "She was all like, 'I hate my job, I'm gonna burn this mother down!' and I said, 'You better not! You better not.'"

5. Benny & JoonPlot: Benny (Aidan Quinn) has no life outside of working on cars and taking care of his "mentally ill" sister (she might be autistic, they never say). After spotting Sam (Johnny Depp) in a tree, Joon wins him in a card game. No, I'm serious. She wins Johnny Depp in a card game. He must be autistic or something too, but he's so eccentric, talented, and charming that Joon falls in love with him, and he falls in love with her. Meanwhile, Benny's still trying to find himself a girlfriend. Will he pull it off? Because, I mean, he doesn't look very good compared to Johnny Depp. Holly's Overall Thoughts: What a sweet, amazing movie this is. I want to know where the hell I can find a card game in which I have a chance of winning autistic Johnny Depp. If you don't like this movie, I will personally stab you in the eye. Hot Guy: Johnny Depp... still the hottest guy ever Great Songs: Sam plays a really cool song with a balloon as his instrument. Moment You Should Watch For: Sam and Joon's big love scene... it's the sweetest thing you'll ever watch. <3, Holly

Beautiful Disaster

"It's the first time I ever felt this lonely. I wish someone would cure this pain. It's funny when you think it's gonna work out... till you chose weed over me, you're so lame. Can't you see that you lie to yourself? You can't see the world through a mirror. It wont be too late when the smoke clears. 'Cause I, I am still here. But everytime I try to make you smile, you're always feeling sorry for yourself. Everytime I try to make you laugh... you can't, you're too tough. You think you're loveless. Is that too much that I'm asking for?"--"Too Much to Ask"--Avril Lavigne

I never really had friends in high school, except for Sarah, who never had my same lunch hour, and not many of my classes. I remember sitting at my desk and trying to concentrate on weird-arsed journalism assignments, but those freaking preps never shut up. The preps bragged about how wasted they'd gotten over the weekend, the goths actually handed each other bags of weed in the halls, and the freaks were always so obviously high. I was disgusted by all of these groups of people. The only kids who seemed cool to me were the straight-edge band nerds and, since I didn't play an instrument, I hung out by myself, paranoid that every single group made fun of me. I couldn't believe these people did all these drugs, after everything we learned about in health class. I swore I would never hang out with people who knowingly killed their brain cells & altered their perception like that.

I finally made friends in college. As soon as I experienced the thrill of theatre, I knew that was where I belonged. These people seemed to genuinely like me. I became friends with Jerry immediately and, over the months, I fell in love with this incredible gayboy. Life was suddenly wonderful because Jerry was my friend.He drowns in his dreams...He was the most talented, passionate person I'd ever met. The moment I found out he drank all the time and smoked pot every once in a while, I was devastated.An exquisite extreme, I knowI couldn't just stop being his friend... Jerry wasn't one of those nameless high school druggies that I'd so easily called losers.He's as damned as he seemsI was amazed, though... how could someone who was so smart in every other aspect of life do those things to his body?And more Heaven that a heart could holdI knew he was sad, but why did he think drinking and drugs would help? My family didn't entirely understand why I was still hanging out with Jerry. It was because, when I looked at him, I didn't see some guy who did things I completely disagreed with. I still saw one of the most extraordinary people I'd ever met. I wanted to help him somehow, even though he didn't think he needed help. And if I try to save him, my whole world could cave in. It just ain't right... it just ain't right

He recently started attending AA meetings, and I couldn't be prouder of him for that. But at the same time he started AA, he joined a band, which I thought would be great for him. True, he seemed happier now that he could sing all the time, but he now had to go away for a week at a time & at night, the band would sit around a campfire, drinking and smoking pot. He told me these trips were the most fun he'd ever had. That stung. The most fun I've ever had has been with him. I really like Jerry's new bandmate and friend, Shannon. In fact, I think of her as my friend too. But she does smoke weed, and when Jerry's with her, he does too.

The other night, I was at a late-night diner with Jerry and Shannon. After we ate, they wanted to go to her house and watch a movie. But they wanted to smoke pot while they were there. Shannon asked if it'd be cool with me if she & Jerry went ahead and smoked, and then I could come over and we'd watch the movie, so I wouldn't have to see them get high. I understand that she was trying to be nice to me, but I can't be around people who are high. I went home and cried, amazed that I'd been able to keep my composure around them (for once) until I could get into my car and break down in tears. I felt like they'd rather get high than be with me, because they knew I would have continued hanging out with them if they'd just kept away from the pot, and we all could've watched the movie together. And that wasn't all that bothered me... every time I thought about Jerry doing that crap to himself, my insides froze. He didn't seem to understand, but I knew he was endangering his health, his amazing personality, and his incredible talent. Before I'd left the restaurant, I told him I at least wanted him to wait till the high wore off before he drove home. But I researched facts on weed (which Jerry always tells me are complete bullcrap) and a high can last for hours. Thinking about the delayed reaction time marijuana gives a person, I laid my head down on the desk and basically had a nervous breakdown. As much as I love them both & I believe they love me, I get the impression that Jerry and Shannon think I'm a naive little girl.

I can't convince him to stop. I can't talk to anyone about it. I feel so alone... powerless... hurt. Terrified. There's nothing I can do. My tears won't help, but I can't stop them.

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Straight Eye For the Queer Guy

Holly's Headlines or Things Holly Has Learned Recently

• Hugging Jerry is good; colds are gross


• New theatre class not up to students' standards


• Holly is cast as Alice in Lost, a confused character who is basically Holly herself


• Meg and Jerry are cast in Interiors as the dirty psyches of proper people


• Kyle is cast as normal guy Dan in Scuba Lessons


• Columbiaville Mansion will be transformed... (Harold Ziddler style) INTO A THEATRE! Kyle will be in charge of the plays, Jerry will be directing, and all four of us will be acting. Our first show will be Rebecca


• Kyle and Meg move in with Jerry; color is introduced to his apartment


• At Holly's 20th birthday dinner, we discovered that Jerry would marry Holly had he been born straight


• Sarah will be giving birth to Kaitlin Marie any time now

So theatre class is not entirely thrilling this semester. Lori, the only theatre teacher I've ever had, has quit. We all thought Lori was the best thing since sliced bread, even the folks who'd had other theatre teachers. Lori let us use our imaginations and play around with our scripts. I Hate Hamlet was the best experience of my life... and no, it wasn't just the all the physical interaction with Jerry. *Grins* But that was definitely a plus. That play was a challenge. I learned to speak with a German accent for the role, Jerry and I actually had to learn to dance, the boys had to figure out how they should sit while wearing tights... It was incredible, the whole experience. The main thing was that Lori encouraged us to have so much fun with the play. When our work was done, we still wanted to go to J.W.'s and hang out. I had my 2 first kisses there with my fellow theatre students, Chris and a very drunk Jerry (he seems to turn straight when he's drinking, so you'd think I'd approve of his love of alcohol, wouldn't you?).

This semester, our teacher is Amy. She doesn't seem to enjoy our idiotic antics nearly as much as Lori did. And instead of doing one whole play, we'll be doing short little plays that should confuse the audience nicely. She likes yelling at Jerry, Meg & Kyle for swearing, but she's just assigned Jerry and Meg to parts where they say dirty, dirty things that will do a wonderful job of offending my grandparents. Kyle will, of course, be playing the attractive guy who gets the attractive girl. And I've got the part of the confused girl who has no clue what's going on with anything in life. Do you see what's happening here? We're all playing ourselves. There's no challenge here. *Sigh* But I'm sure it'll be sort of entertaining. And hey, what am I complaining about? I got a part. *Smacks self and promply resumes writing entry in usual Happy-Go-Lucky-Holly manner*The fun news is, Meg & Kyle have moved in with Jerry! Last Wednesday, after theatre, Jerry and Meg stayed in the car and were sad about their exes while Kyle and I moved his and Meg's things inside the apartment. It turns out that Straight Boy knows how to decorate, and he really surprised the heck outta me when he put in Savage Garden to work to. Who knew the gay guy would suck at decorating, and the straight guy would be so good at it? Eventually, Meg and Jerry came in and the full-out decorating & consumption of Jerry's awesome vegan tacos began. I've never seen Jerry's apartment look so neat... and so colorful. Meg's big, red Buddha umbrella hangs in the corner above Jerry's beautiful wicker and glass table. Kyle's picture of our cast from The Elvis Monolouges is upstairs in what is now his and Meg's bedroom. Meg & Kyle hung her huge purple tapestry on the upstairs ceiling while I snapped pictures galore. We all got little-kid excited by the end of the night, and I caught this hilarious candid video of Jerry that he's very upset about. We've dubbed the place The Theatre Apartment, and plan to film a sitcom starring the four of us called Creative Differences. T'will be very lovely indeed.

<3, Holly

Two Guys, a Girl and the Odd Chick Out

Hi kids! Sorry I haven't written in such a ridiculously long time... I'll be catching up on all your lives (I've missed that a lot) A.S.A.P.!

In my 3rd semester of theatre, I became very good friends with 3 fellow drama kids, who I love to death. There's Jerry, the hot gay boy who is hilarious, sinngs like a sexy-arsed angel, and has become a vegan & animal rights activist over the course of the three months. There's Meg, the beautifully eccentric girl who says cute things & meows a lot. And finally, there's Kyle, the ultimate nice guy who is adorable & extremely humorous. When Kyle & Meg aren't making out or fighting, they're meowing "I love you" to each other.We were all in I Hate Hamlet together in November, and we've been inseperable ever since. In December, we took a bus trip to Ohio with my step-dad's hockey team, my step-dad, and my mom, where Jerry sang the National Anthem, Kyle filmed, and Meg and I were subjected to a sport. *Shudders* We stayed in Ohio overnight (since Jerry would be singing for the game the next day, too) and I must say, I was very excited about sleeping in a bed with Jerry... until he snored in my ear. We did have lots of fun making sandwiches for the hockey players in preparation of the trip, and purchasing lovely things in the awesome downtown shopping district. Most of the time these days, we all just hang out at J.W.'s, where Jerry sings karaoke and I sit there, being in unrequited love with him... and video taping, of course. Check out the way he sings "I'll Be".Everyone quickly learned how anti-alcohol, anti-smoking, anti-drugs, & anti-conformity I am one night when we all went to a Coney Island after an I Hate Hamlet rehearsal. My three new friends, along with Justin, another theatre kid, all wanted to go out to their cars and smoke pot. I was shocked and unbelievably upset to find out that they did this stuff to themselves, and that they would do it in my presence. I immediately burst into tears upon hearing what they wanted to do, and everyone said they felt terrible for making me feel so horrible, and decided not to do it around me. Meg and Kyle still continued to smoke cigarettes every second of the day, Jerry kept "smoking socially," as he called it, and he seemed to get drunk nearly every time we went to the karaoke bar. I worried about them all constantly, especially Jerry, whom I had grown the closest to. I was relieved beyond belief when Jerry made the New Year's Resolution to stop smoking, and I was thrilled when he made a vow to never drink as much as he did the night before Thanksgiving, when he got so drunk, he couldn't give me directions to his house, and he had to sleep it off on my living room couch. But New Year's came and went, and Jerry kept smoking, and even got extremely drunk again-- at least I knew how to drive to his apartment by then. I became depressed (not to mention sick from the smoke) every time we went to a bar. I went home crying every night... couldn't he see how much he was hurting me by hurting himself? Or did he just not care? I took to shooting Jerry dirty looks every time he ordered a mug of beer or a shot, and was extremely upset when he tricked me into paying for one of his shots.A few nights ago, Jerry invited me to his apartment, where we would hang out with Meg and Kyle, like usual. But when I got there, they all kept going into the bathroom together. I figured they were doing drugs (it had really smelled like pot in there to me...) & felt like they must think I was a real moron to not guess what they were doing. I felt humiliated, assuming they'd all had a big laugh, thinking they'd pulled one over on me. I called Jerry up the next day and demanded that he tell me what had been going on in the bathroom. He admitted they'd been drinking beer, and that they'd stashed it in the bathtub when I'd knocked on the door. Trying not to cry & failing, I told him how hurt I was that they'd lied to me, and that if they were going to be doing stuff that they knew would bother me, don't invite me in the first place.Jerry and Meg came to my house the next day and explained to me that they wanted me around, but they had wanted to drink really bad, so they hid it from me since they knew I'd have one of my emotional breakdowns & leave if I was aware of what was going on. They said that they love me, but feel like they have to tiptoe around me & can't completely be themselves when I'm there. I don't want them to feel like that, but I worry about them so much, and I just don't know what to do.

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